life is what happens when you are making other plans!

On May 20th it will be a year since our information (dossier) arrived in Ethiopia. On May 21st we will have our second court attempt. We decided we would adopt almost two years ago....
this has been the longest pregnancy ... i know lots of people struggle to start families and i count our lucky stars for many reasons, but this is really difficult!!! Wait ... hurry and wait and wait, laterally wait for almost two years. i hear that it will be all worth it when we get our little bundle fo joy home.... unless of course its just in time to pay his college tuition... lol.... no seriously.... lol that is really all we can do ... what else can we do.... laugh and be patient... no, calm... be calm. worry and fretting gets us no where except depressed even more. i know that it will happen... just a question of when. i've been ready to be a mom since i found out i had cancer!! funny how crisis in life can reveal what you really want. well maybe i knew before that.. but having a doctor tell me that i had cancer and all the things that meant. .... all i could think of was "damn it, I really want to be a mom before i die!" I wanted DRew to be the Dad, my partner in it... he is going to be an amazing dad. He already is to his students... like i am to some of mine. We are blessed in that we already have kids in our lives. even though they don't live in our house... we just have to be happy with our friends kids, our family kids, and our kids at school... good grief, when you think of all that, you wonder why we want our own... well we just are selfish and want our own to mess up. I figure i can't do as bad as some of the parents i see at my school. right?
don't pity me or Drew we are fine... we are happy, we are in a good place! but prays are very welcome. Also, i'd like to say that I'd like to stop saying, "well that sounds like fun, but we may be traveling to pick up our kid during the time you are wanting to go on that cool trip, or maybe i should put off working on my national boards or going back to school for a PhD until i know what is happening with our adoption. life is what happens when you are making other plans.